You venture forth, expectant, waiting, yearning and there it is, the wall. Damn thing looks impenetrable. Probably is. Mind whirrs, making it impossible, all things. Shut the front door, shut all the doors save the one, long hallway of longing and knowing that this life is dream, able to sustain itself on pure emotion, the thrill of a kiss, the warmth of his memory and mine, savoring that, enticing beyond all consequence but the jump, high over and arcing beyond impossible to I’m possible, because on the other side is your life, your heart, beyond the fear is everything.
When you lead with your heart, you take the lead.
To each of you that posted ‘ME, TOO,’ I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am an incest survivor and speaking out cost me dearly. Just a decade ago, this culture silenced and punished me. I lost friends and family dear to me. I lived in fear of being judged and lost precious aspects of life due to my childhood secret. I am relieved that the narrative is changing. I am happy that so many are speaking and being heard. In my eyes, you are warriors, courageous and strong in a time of great challenge. Thank you for breaking your silence. Thank you for doing what few have the strength to do. I know how hard it can be. I know how hard it can be to speak the truth. I know how hard it can be to heal the wounds. Even after speaking out, I remained a victim. Even after years of therapy and group sessions, I was unable to claim my victory. There was a full and wonderful life waiting for me, and I needed to figure out how to have it. So, I wrote it out. I described my journey from victim to victory in a book called, The More Love Club. If you’ve spoken up and you are still feeling hurt, hopeless, stuck, fed up, angry, confused or alone, please read my book. Please, read my book knowing that I want to reach out and let you know that I understand and that you are not alone. I hear you. I believe you. I know you. You are a magnificent, brave, powerful and perfect being. United We Stand. Thank you again. Me, too.
The Solar Eclipse August 21st, denotes an historical time of change. This change need not be ominous, but a welcome sign of growth and evolution. As we are spirit we may remain still. Yet our physical selves may experience turbulence. And so I invite you to let go. Let this change be excitement, the motion necessary for you to release that which no longer serves, making room for new life, new belief and new awakening to your most authentic selves. Embrace change, as you would surrender. For it is not the surrender, but the holding on to old ideas, opinions, judgments and old identifications of self, that hurts. Let this eclipse be the reflection of your soul. For you are Moon and Sun, perfectly aligned that you might shine even in the darkness.
Your parts, every cell, the dna, the who am I, its all you, your world, your experience, systemic; the integrity of the working parts. Your awareness of that is your life. Know your parts, what’s relevant, which synapses are viable. Decide what you keep, fund that which makes you flourish, integral, knowable, and love that, that which is you, which works, until that which doesnt work simply doesnt and that which does, is your world.
1.You are entitled to be happy with everything that you have.
2.You have the right to approve of yourself.
3.You have the right to admire yourself and your choices.
5.You have the right to find everything that is right with you.
6.You have the right to celebrate your life.
Joy is your birthright.
We all know it. We forget to remember. But deep inside, when you close your eyes and completely relax, completely let go, its there. We’ve been here before. Maybe hundreds of times. We’ve lived and died and lived again. Close your eyes.
They all forget. We tell them not to and they promise, of course. But they forget. So we have come to remind them. You are light workers. You are in these physical bodies to shed light. Do not be fooled by the present ideologies of man. Do not be distracted by their anger, arguments, or their passionate denial. Shed light. Be light. Show the way. Let your light shine into the darkness that all may walk within and toward the source of all light and love.
When investing in self, (which is the most important financial concern of your life), it is important to note that money is the least expensive thing you will ever spend.
Ordinary miracles, dew on the grass, sun, tide, wheat stalks swaying, frogs near a stream, a thicket filled with fireflies, coyotes howling at the moon, a fat crow eyeing me from the telephone wire, small seedlings, nesting in a cup, everything it needs inside the hull. Your seed is already planted, inside, evident in the everyday miracle of you.
If thoughts were hammers, words the nails, we’d know we were building something, we’d know that which we thought, spoke, was creation, village, city, country, world, universe. Watch what you think, what you speak and see construct, foundation, studs, support beam, barn raising, community. What house will you create, what structure, plywood, brick, glass, plexi or shingle will you choose? Will you give it your most mattered attention, will you make it home? Will you lay the hearth, fill the rafters, secure the mantle with your heart?
We codify, describe, format, file, explain, define and its gone. That which is, is. It can’t be compartmentalized, structured, named without losing essence. To experience, viscerally download moment by moment, beyond mind, explanation, willing to allow the ontological nature, vibration, perfect timing and revelation of life, we become present, tangible, the breath of this universe, which in its very being-ness, source, is love.
Get ready. It’s coming. Can you feel it? We’re dropping pain, guilt, shame, who-I-am that thinks it is it’s history and telling a new, vibrant, I am that, becoming energized, stunningly revealed, pure being, reborn story. All that muscular structure built from struggle increases the velocity of the free fall. Sliding into ecstasy, the thrill of the ride, the rush of wind and joy of losing mind and standing firmly in heart. Welcome home, its 2017
What if you were the creator creating the creation? What if the world you lived in was up to you? What if everything and everyone was an extension of your story, playing out on the movie screen of your life? What plot would you write and who will play the hero/heroine? Will it be comedy, drama-dy, tragedy, history/herstory, or farce? Will you lead with your heart? Will you change the world? Will you stand for love?
As we approach the final hours of 2016 I am sending you all love and more love. Filled with gratitude for the hardships and lessons learned, my heart is overflowing. I am blessed beyond measure. To live in this time, and share the opportunity and possibility to be a warrior of love and miracle is indeed, an honor.
As you journey forth, please be kind and loving to yourselves above all. And remember:
‘There is no finish line, no end goal, except that you do it. In the doing is everything, because the finish line, the end goal, is you.’ ~ Excerpt from the upcoming Mind Matters: Part I: The Fundamentals
Take good care. Wrap yourselves up and bless your hearts. There’s magic out there and you are it.
Trump has been hired to represent all of America, not just the MINORITY of America (characterized as the majority by the electorate) who voted for him. He is elected to work on behalf of EVERYBODY. Do not forget, if you voted for Hilary Clinton, you are in THE MAJORITY of this American People. You are the majority and you matter. You matter to me and you matter to the sanctity of our nation. Together we stand to ensure that this president elect faithfully represents the constitution. He must protect and serve the American people. All of them. If he does not, cannot, we, the majority, will fire him. As Americans we cannot lose sight of who we are. We are by the people, for the people, ALL THE PEOPLE, no matter what. We are the majority. We have the power. Dont forget.
There is a consciousness over there and a very different one over here. A divide. Maybe those of us who want unity and elegance and integrity and bounty and compassion and respect for all of mankind in all its permutations, maybe this is the time, especially the time, that we resolve to be that. Be unity. Be elegance. Be integrity, bounty and compassion. Be respect. We are meant to grow. We are meant to rise to our most mattered selves and accept that what is happening is happening to good purpose. The purpose is to grow ourselves, our understanding and ability to cross this divide, to better understand each other. To really listen. To connect instead of judge. I choose to begin. I choose to understand. I choose to love this country and commit from the whole of my being to promote the building of a bridge between you and me. My heart is open. My intention is pure. Lets begin, you and I. Lets find a way to love and honor each other and this earth.
I am the mountain, I am the stream, I am the sunrise, I am a dream, a shock of moonbeam, a silver streak, arms to hold you, through the night. I am the ocean, I am the shore, I am the seagulls, I am your floor, a world to walk on, air to breath, a stunning sunset, your soul to keep. I am your spirit, I am your heart, I am the outside, I am the dark, the sweet vibration, beside you smile, before the morning, I’ll stay awhile. And be here always, in you I live. Unfurl the petals to give and give, the way you’ve taught me, the way I know with love forever, the world will grow and grow and grow and grow and grow.
Its never too late to risk it all, care with all your heart, dream beyond all reason and expect it all to come true. Its never too late.
Your power is not money or prestige, your power is not pride in self, others or community, it is not rules & laws, or even the whales you’ve saved or the number of friends and family you have. Your Power is your Heart. The currency of that commodity, the way you Love, the amount of times you’ve Loved without need to receive anything in return, that’s true power. Love is the Ultimate Power and it is always, all ways within. When given freely it is the definitive Creator and Healer. Your power is You and the Deep, Deep Commitment to Love and Love and Love again.
Now the land within you, renewed, green and fertile, an expression of abundance, energy, strength, life force and success is the expression of all life, abundance, success, including and most especially you, your fertility, your dreams, your coming into manhood/womanhood, your being-ness, you. The sun, being fully empowered, shines on your every endeavor to bring you great bounty. Dream.
As the fullness of the Summer Sun is clearing, readying the field, enriching the soil for the seeds, (dreams) to be planted. Now, now, open your fingers, while the veil is thin between man and spirit, empty your hands, letting seed sift from your palms, dropping into the divine soil enriched with your intention. The harvest, that which yearns to be born is within, desiring to be sired. This is the fertility of being, a time of magic, when the earth prepares, awaits with great expectation the supreme manifestation. Now is a time of rejoicing and faith in the Mother/Father God of this Totality. Cast your dreams that they may take root and bear witness to the fruit of your soul. Plant your seeds that you may reap the benefit of your courage. Dare to dream.
Now the land, green and fertile, an expression of abundance, energy, strength, life force and success is the expression of all life, abundance, success, including and most especially you, your fertility, your dreams, your coming into manhood/womanhood, your being-ness, you. The sun, being fully empowered, shines on your every endeavor to bring you great bounty. What will you dream Great Spirit?
For all that you have birthed including yourself, all that you have been witness to, pregnant with or without thought, the creation of and the delivery to, we the world, the cosmos, all those stars and constellations spinning, calling ourselves planets, thank you. Thank you to the mother of all for speaking us into existence, the motion of your breath, molecule of essence so pure and filled with light that we become that. Thank you for mother/father earth and the seed being planted, that now brings with it the sweet, sweet fruit of fulfillment. You. As the bow releases, we fly like arrows into the atmosphere, knowing that we have rich heritage, one of love and magnificence. Thank you for the miracle of life that you bring. Happy Mother’s Day to each of you birthed and birthing the self and other!
There is no now. No static, one dimensional now. In every present now is choice, several dimensions of choice, at least 12. Past, present, future of the past, past, present, future of the present and past, present, future of the future, not to mention the beginning, middle and end, ad infinitum, in any given moment that we call now. So given that, aligned with your date of birth, time, place and the exact configuration of the planets, when you took your first breath, you have a multitude of choices that continue to configure and reconfigure your now. Wild ride, right? Right now!
When you know you are blind, then you begin to see.
If you are doing it right, do it wrong. Go off book, off topic, off script, off hand, off the wall, off the rails. For once in your life, do something, anything, outside the cultural norm, something unexpected. Just a turn to the left and a little to your right and you’ve missed the mark. Miss it. Feel that? Its the thrill of the free fall, the risk, filling you up. Take a chance. Just for today, let spirit tell you where to go and what to do. Have you fed your soul today?
Our bodies, our souls, our beings are meant for joy. We are also meant to struggle. For it is in the resistance that we are building the muscular structure to maintain balance and be available for this present joy. The challenge on this physical plane that we accept when coming into existence is that we struggle, move forward, then back, seeking, attaching ourselves, our spirits to greater outcome. Due to the struggle, we have the power to hold still and allow ourselves to reside, deeply within the self. Knowing that we are enough, is really all we are after. And because you have struggled, you know this. You have found space within and are able to hold still. You are enough. As you struggle, move forward and back, build metaphysical muscle and find joy, you are enough. You are enough. All ways. Always.
‘Learning to focus on something other than mind thought, building the muscular structure to disengage the mind by meditating, engages the subconscious knowing that comes from the very essence of you. That’s artistry and life at its finest.’
~Excerpt from The Alexander Method: Transformational Acting for the Total Actor ( A More Love Club Publication )
Love Comes From An Infinite Well.
To get the perfect guy you have to be the perfect girl. To get the perfect girl you have to be the perfect guy. To get the perfect man you have to be the perfect man. To get the perfect woman you have to be the perfect woman. To get the perfect anything you have to be the perfect everything. To get the perfect anyone you have to be the perfect someone. To get the perfect love you have to be the perfect love. To be the perfect love, you simply have to be. Just be. Be you. You are perfect. You are perfectly lovely, lovable and loving. When you know that, when you know how perfect and loving you are, when you realize the perfect love you have to give, watch all the perfect and loving things that come to you.
You don’t have to be silent anymore. Now is the time to speak your truth. Rise and speak the unspeakable. I hear you. I believe you. I know you. I am you. I love you. You are a magnificent, brave, powerful and perfect being. I support you. And I thank you. Thank you for standing, thank you for speaking. I am with you.
Close your eyes and concentrate on the breath. As you breathe, focus your attention on your heart. Drop from the center of your mind and relocate yourself deep within the folds of your heart. Imagine the muscle, and fiber of your heart as you feel your chest moving up and down. Listen for each beat, and putting a hand on your sternum, continue to locate yourself there, in the very center of your being. Nestle your entire spirit and soul within the cradle of your beating heart. There is no rush. Just breathe, effortlessly, quietly, as you experience the motion of your heart. Allow the light of your heart to fill and surround you, before opening your eyes.
This pain you speak of is from within. You identify it as outside of you, in the faces of mankind. There are bombs exploding, men and women drenched in blood, and if for the moment you are present, you see it. The reflection of your aching heart. That which is inside of you, yearning to be heard. Not the sarcasm, the cruel jokes, the seemingly innocent banter, designed to rip the flesh, but the vulnerability and desire to be loved. This war we wage is against ourselves. And what if I told you, ‘I will not move. I am here. I am asking and waiting for you’?. What if you knew I loved you? Would you hold out your hands, your heart and let yourself receive it? Do you know you have that kind of power? Do you know you are able to love yourself and the world and that that immense courage heals all?
What are you creating? What do you want to be creating? Do you want to create joy? You can. I promise you, you have everything you need.
I do not look for pity. I look for the lesson. In publishing I am endeavoring to be accountable to that which the universe is teaching. There are common thieves among us. Yet they do not steal the soul, they do not steal the spirit, nor the inspiration to live and love life. If I can offer that knowing to anyone, it is my privilege to offer my life story:
After years of asking, just this afternoon, the day before my mother’s memorial I finally received a copy of her will.
“I have intentionally made no provisions for my daughter, Adrienne, and her descendants….”
Trust no one, unless they are trustworthy. Trust them when and if they are trustworthy and when they cease to be kind, honest or decent, let them go. Trust no one, unless they are trustworthy. And those you trust, love with your whole being.
What if you knew your mind was your mind but also not your mind? What if you knew, that while your mind was connected to you and your body, it was also connected to a much larger network of other minds, and other conscious beings? What if you knew that you were a living cell of a living organism comprised of other living cells all communicating with each other with their minds, for the good of the whole? What if keeping the system pristine and in working order had everything to do with the thoughts you allowed to become manifest? What if your life and the life of the organism we call ‘totality,’ depended on the quality of thought you were thinking? What would you think?
Without the dark there would be no contrast with which to experience our personal light. It is the formidable darkness that presents us an opportunity to realize our light. As we persevere we build the muscular structure to shine at will, regardless of circumstance. Great darkness creates opportunity to illuminate and be that which we are: shining guideposts of inner freedom. If there is an imbalance between dark and light, it is the imbalance within that would disallow the emotional, spiritual and physical planes of life to meet with the organic resistance meant to give rise to our most maximums selves. When we accept the darkness as a natural part of this existence, we also accept its challenge. Darkness perfects and builds our adaptation to it, which allows us to shine, more brilliantly, more assuredly and with greater capacity. We are meant to pierce the inevitable darkness with the divine, immaculate light of our fierce magnificence.
Peace as it is manifested, comes from within. When it is fully expanded and mature within the self, then it can be offered to others. Peace is not a concept. It is not a belief. It is an inward expression of the contentment that one derives from love and acceptance of the self. When one truly loves the self, it is possible to love other. It is possible to experience the energy form as a frequency, which permeates and changes environments. Loving the self and other, the journey becomes the art of allowing all facets of human behavior to co-exist as important expressive forms of life. It begins on the inside. Peace begins with me.
When you are able to disconnect from everything, you can connect to anything.
This is a predatory universe. If I am engaged in the fight of my life holding the banner of awareness and my shield of enlightenment, it does not matter how hard I fight. Because the enemy is within and knows my every move before I make it. The enemy is me, my mind, ego and unexamined thought.
Success is an over-rated ideal, concept, construct, mind’s idea, cultural (cult you are all) belief system, widely held consciousness, or meme. And it is rife with the unholy trinity of shame, guilt and self-loathing. The path one chooses, the challenges one faces, the devotion to task, the service given with humility are far more intrinsic to the journey of life, far more authentic and integral to a person’s measure. If one must measure. For my part, I think one must love. I think one must love the self foremost, and the rest will follow. If you are able to love yourself, forgive yourself, support and care for yourself as you stumble and grow, that is success. Love is success.
Events in your life do not cause stress. Stress is caused by the way you view the events in your life.
If you speak creation into existence (which you do), if you have the power to manifest with your word (which you have) and love is the greatest power, (yes!) greater than fear, greater than human suffering, greater than all obstacle, then will you lean in? Will you choose to be the brilliant magician you were designed to be? Will you imagine (I Magi giving the gift of self to self) quills of light shattering the darkness as you create from the heart?
In every life … there comes a time when you get to risk the loss of self, go beyond the fear of, the lie of the mind, stand before the gatekeepers (Self-Importance and Self-Pity), move through the Dark Night of the Soul, past the Valley of the Shadow of Death, fear, risk everything and release all, your entire life to save it, in order to claim what’s rightfully yours. Your birthright. Joy.
His name was Squanto, Native American, enslaved in his childhood, forced to become Squire to seafaring royalty. In Spain he fled and through a series of harrowing and magical circumstances ended up in Plymouth Rock during a fateful winter. He saved the Pilgrims, taught them how to, fish, fertilize, plant crops, corn. Because of Squanto, the Pilgrims, we survived. I am thankful for the soul of a man who forgave a willful people and saw past the color of one’s skin to spirit. For me, Thanksgiving is the valor of his heart, his courage, his humility and his great, great ability to love. Happy Thanksgiving all!
Once you see it, you can’t not, expansion, enlightenment (lighting up) that which is there and everyone has cover, obnoxious opinions, judgment, ticks, warts, barnacles and mind’s ideas. Wow. This is awake. Ignorance is actually bliss. And this transcendence, messy, the seeing, no shield, no blindness, just life, raw, unmasked, the kind that hurts. Welcome to awareness. No time for self pity, or self importance, wrap yourself in metaphysical cloth, send out quills of light, protecting and reflecting out the darkness, tend to the enlightenment, (that which is meant to light up), regardless, (regarding less) the cover and opinions. Because knowing it’s there, the lower energy, the vampire, non organic entity bellowing ‘Tis the Season, Lack People, Lack!’ allows you to stop feeding it and by investing fully in your own self worth, do your part. Achieving the greatest and most powerful of spiritual (spirit you are all) juxtapositions. Right now. Shields Up and Hearts Open!
There’s a lot to be done here before we can be said to have reached awareness, of other, ourselves, the world, the universe, our existence or even the slightest recognition of nature, ours, the worlds’. The beat of this drum, this life penetrates deep, underground, underworld, a profound calling for you to rise, stand, with open heart, full throat, fierce vision. Rise. Stand in love and be counted.
It’s everywhere. Spirit. In the trees, sky, ocean, dirt, rocks, me, you, the changing weather, plants sprouting. Can you close your eyes and open them too? Hear the call, like nature, a sense, a knowing, that guides? Listen to it whisper. The chant, an invocation of love. What if today, you quieted your mind, dropped into your heart, held out your hands and let love do the rest? What if you lived in possibility, miracle, creation and first press joy?
This beauty, much deeper than skin, far brighter than the paint we daub. Lest our animal natures show, we cover, burnish, polish, whiten, eliminate. Scared of the wrinkle, crow’s feet, bulge, droop, signs of wisdom. These bodies sacred. Sacred. Every nook, barnacle, newfound jowl, expression of, joy, feeling, having lived, loved, wept and known the innermost sense of self, other, all. Today, honoring every inch of this physical body, its pain, bliss, courage, stamina, nobility, magnificence. I bow. Thank you for my life. Thank you for this head, neck, shoulders, hips, thighs, knees, ankles, feet, toes. Thank you all creation. Thank you love.
In this darkness there is always light, in the shadow, some filtered moon, the edge of morning returning. This evening, this deep hollow is but the sweet field of yearning before the dawn, before the sun creeps over the mountain, blazing through the creases of our being. For as the blood courses through us, the heart beats, there is always love. Love in your breathing, your hands opening to the fire. Sleep well. Dream long and remember. Let this waking be the new song, the continued reverie of your soul. When the night is over, you will see again, be again, in love again. With me. With you. Your life. Your love. Your heart.
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When you risk everything, forget safe, love with every inch of you and release fear, get far too close and personal, expose vulnerability, be totally, totally impractical and dream, dream, dream with all your heart, expect the impossible. Its possible.
Happy Valentines Love Yourself Day!
Just for today, what if you loved yourself? What if you loved your toes, your hair, your smile, your intuition, belly laugh, indecision, supposed stubbornness, shyness, humility, boldness, charm, lack of it, hero-ness? What if all that you saw around you, a reflection of you, was love? The kind of love that saves worlds and invites people to come along? What if you had that kind of life changing power within you? What if you loved yourself? Right now? For one minute, for two, or three or even more? Could you do it? Will you do it? When? Now?