You venture forth, expectant, waiting, yearning and there it is, the wall. Damn thing looks impenetrable. Probably is. Mind whirrs, making it impossible, all things. Shut the front door, shut all the doors save the one, long hallway of longing and knowing that this life is dream, able to sustain itself on pure emotion, the thrill of a kiss, the warmth of his memory and mine, savoring that, enticing beyond all consequence but the jump, high over and arcing beyond impossible to I’m possible, because on the other side is your life, your heart, beyond the fear is everything.
Imagine what your life would be like if you were not preoccupied by the recycling of events that frustrate and upset you? Imagine what you could accomplish if you were not sidetracked by feeling thwarted, unworthy, unheard or unseen? Imagine what your life would be if you could concentrate on the things that bring you happiness? If mind were perpetuating distraction, but you were not reacting to it, you could focus. You could cast your flame of attention and illuminate what you choose. Everything you want is waiting beyond the fear of, the lie of the mind. Everything you dream for yourself is over there.
When you lead with your heart, you take the lead.
To each of you that posted ‘ME, TOO,’ I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am an incest survivor and speaking out cost me dearly. Just a decade ago, this culture silenced and punished me. I lost friends and family dear to me. I lived in fear of being judged and lost precious aspects of life due to my childhood secret. I am relieved that the narrative is changing. I am happy that so many are speaking and being heard. In my eyes, you are warriors, courageous and strong in a time of great challenge. Thank you for breaking your silence. Thank you for doing what few have the strength to do. I know how hard it can be. I know how hard it can be to speak the truth. I know how hard it can be to heal the wounds. Even after speaking out, I remained a victim. Even after years of therapy and group sessions, I was unable to claim my victory. There was a full and wonderful life waiting for me, and I needed to figure out how to have it. So, I wrote it out. I described my journey from victim to victory in a book called, The More Love Club. If you’ve spoken up and you are still feeling hurt, hopeless, stuck, fed up, angry, confused or alone, please read my book. Please, read my book knowing that I want to reach out and let you know that I understand and that you are not alone. I hear you. I believe you. I know you. You are a magnificent, brave, powerful and perfect being. United We Stand. Thank you again. Me, too.
What if feelings aren’t truth, or reality, but a chemical reaction, downloading, pixels on a screen creating an image, like a movie? What if my discomfort isn’t about you, but about me, my history, the last time I got hurt, my body remembers? What if being present means being present to what triggers my past, feeling those feelings and letting the trigger walk by? If this is the movie of my life, what if I sit still and watch?
The Solar Eclipse August 21st, denotes an historical time of change. This change need not be ominous, but a welcome sign of growth and evolution. As we are spirit we may remain still. Yet our physical selves may experience turbulence. And so I invite you to let go. Let this change be excitement, the motion necessary for you to release that which no longer serves, making room for new life, new belief and new awakening to your most authentic selves. Embrace change, as you would surrender. For it is not the surrender, but the holding on to old ideas, opinions, judgments and old identifications of self, that hurts. Let this eclipse be the reflection of your soul. For you are Moon and Sun, perfectly aligned that you might shine even in the darkness.
Your parts, every cell, the dna, the who am I, its all you, your world, your experience, systemic; the integrity of the working parts. Your awareness of that is your life. Know your parts, what’s relevant, which synapses are viable. Decide what you keep, fund that which makes you flourish, integral, knowable, and love that, that which is you, which works, until that which doesnt work simply doesnt and that which does, is your world.